Currently Playing: London Calling - The Clash

Have you ever felt like you were born in the wrong place? I do, but I guess only to an extent. I love the place I was born, my parents, my siblings, and my friends, but I’ve always felt a little out of place and out of touch with my surroundings - like I don’t belong in this particular place.

Ever since I was little I wanted to travel, where, at the time I didn’t know, but as I grew older I felt a pull towards England. I don’t know why, but I think it’s because I really love the culture, the people, the places, the scenery. I even remember when I was about fourteen I told my mom I was going to get married in England because it was so pretty and green in the country.

This summer it hit me - I was going to England as soon as I graduated college. I was going to start saving to go London and by the time I graduated I would have enough to stay there for a month. And I did, I started in June and have continued ever since. I am determined. I make sure of it. I have an England flag in my room to remind myself everyday of where I want to be someday.

I think London would be cool for me. It would be kind of a test run to see if I could actually live there. I’ve asked some friends to see if they’re actually interested in going with me, but I don’t know how serious they are about it. I know they want to go, and I don’t want to go alone by any means, I saw Taken for Heaven’s sake, but I don’t know if they will actually follow through with it. I want them to badly. I want to go out to bars with them and meet cute English guys and see what the city has to offer. Going alone is definitely a possibility, but I don’t want it to be.

Then today I heard that one of my best friends is going to England for the 2012 Summer Olympics to teach kids how to play basketball with the US Women’s Basketball team. It’s her second time and I’m so jealous that I haven’t been anywhere except Canada, which in reality doesn’t ever count if we’re being real honest.

At this rate, I should be in the UK in about 18 months, which in reality, isn’t that far, but I want it to be there now. I’m in such a rush to finish college and start my life. It almost worries me that I just want to fast forward. I want to enjoy my life, but it’s hard when something so exciting is in my future. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted anything so badly.

Well, I got news for everyone, the girl who isn’t that optimistic is being very optimistic: I am going to England summer 2013!